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May. 3rd, 2009
Today sucks.
May. 3rd, 2009 07:00 pmI knew it was going happen someday. And that makes this really hard to write, because even though I knew it would happen, I stil feel woefully unprepared for it. Nick had a seizure today. He's had one before since we were dating, but I wasn't there for it. In my head, I'm going over everything I should have done. I should have called 911 when he was convulsing, before the seizure started. I didn't recognize it for what it was until he was lying on the bed violently seizing.
It's the scariest thing you ever see. I've been trained to time seizures, to take notes on what happens. And I didn't have the presence of mind to do any of that. I called 911, and the EMTs were quick to get here (I was also just out of the shower. After the seizure, I managed to get dressed before they got there (with the window wide open. go me) By the time they took his bs, it had returned to a normal level. By the time we got to the hospital, nick was more or less aware of everything.
We were 4 hours at the hospital, making sure that it was just a low blood sugar, and nothing else. I called Lori to sit with me, which helped me out a lot. I haven't freaked out yet, that's sure to come tonight, but mostly I'm carrying on through sheer force of will and strength.
Nick is fine now. They pushed fluids in him, ran a few tests. He's cranky and feels like shit, but he's fine and will be fine. He can't drive (SOP for seizures) until he sees a neurologist, etc. Or take hot baths. Thankfully, I can take those for him.
But I'm just so scared now. I know I'll do better if there is a next time, but it's like all the training I had went out the window. I don't like that. I mean, while I knew what to do during the seizure, I didn't catch it early enough, and really freaked out on the phone to 911.
This day needs to be over, like now. I feel like crap, and I can't imagine how worse nick must feel.
It's the scariest thing you ever see. I've been trained to time seizures, to take notes on what happens. And I didn't have the presence of mind to do any of that. I called 911, and the EMTs were quick to get here (I was also just out of the shower. After the seizure, I managed to get dressed before they got there (with the window wide open. go me) By the time they took his bs, it had returned to a normal level. By the time we got to the hospital, nick was more or less aware of everything.
We were 4 hours at the hospital, making sure that it was just a low blood sugar, and nothing else. I called Lori to sit with me, which helped me out a lot. I haven't freaked out yet, that's sure to come tonight, but mostly I'm carrying on through sheer force of will and strength.
Nick is fine now. They pushed fluids in him, ran a few tests. He's cranky and feels like shit, but he's fine and will be fine. He can't drive (SOP for seizures) until he sees a neurologist, etc. Or take hot baths. Thankfully, I can take those for him.
But I'm just so scared now. I know I'll do better if there is a next time, but it's like all the training I had went out the window. I don't like that. I mean, while I knew what to do during the seizure, I didn't catch it early enough, and really freaked out on the phone to 911.
This day needs to be over, like now. I feel like crap, and I can't imagine how worse nick must feel.